Prop 8...Dont Ask Dont Tell...whats next? Dont even get me started on healthcare

I am really getting sick of all these bad things that keep happening to openly gay people. It really pisses me off that they are not treated equally because of their sexual orientation. To be honest, if I had the time to write this more eloquently I would, but its FUCKED UP TO TREAT PEOPLE LIKE SECOND CLASS CITIZENS, for any reason! You cant help what sex you prefer. Its something that a person is born with. Do you know how many gay people I know who have told me that they wouldnt have "chosen" this path? It is a very difficult thing for a person to go through because of all the judgements and restricitions that are put upon you from the day you come out. Do all people not deserve equal rights is the "land of the free??" Land of the free my ass! We are living in the fucking stoneage, behind other countries even who had some of the same, BULLSHIT policies and have since changed them. I thought this was the year for change Mr. President? I thought this was the year we would all come together and ladi da? What happened to that?! Why are we waiting on this? Why is this on the back burner?! I am really upset by this.

Just read this:

Lessons from Australia, Canada, Israel, and Britain




Each of the four countries studied reversed its gay ban for different reasons. In Canada, federal courts forced the armed forces to lift the ban in October 1992, ruling that military policy violated Canada's Charter of Rights and Freedoms. In Australia, the liberal government of Prime Minister Paul Keating voted to lift the ban in November 1992 as the country was integrating a number of international human rights conventions into its domestic laws and codes. In Israel, the military lifted its ban in June 1993 after dramatic Knesset hearings prompted a public outcry against the armed forces' exclusion of gay and lesbian soldiers. And in Britain, in September 1999, the European Court of Human Rights ruled that Britain's gay ban violated the right to privacy guaranteed in the European Convention on Human Rights, and London reacted by lifting the ban in January 2000. Despite the different routes that led to the policy ...

Canada. Fucking CANADA has overturned this and we havent? Are you KIDDING ME?

Now I dont know about you, but I cant believe that more people arent speaking up about this! How can people not speak up for BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS AND FREEDOM FOR ALL PEOPLE?

What happened to Liberty and justice for all? Do people even know the meaning of Liberty?

Liberty is a concept of political philosophy and identifies the condition in which an individual has the right to act according to his or her own will.

Please support equal rights for ALL PEOPLE. I am , and I will continue to do so until this fight is won. Since I cant march this weekend I am going to donate!

http://www.gaycenter.org/advocacy/nationalequalitymarch


Gay Marriage in DC? Theres a start! http://www.washblade.com/2009/10-9/news/localnews/15318.cfm

 
 
And because all things should be covered, please watch the following video. Its long but its worth watching.
 
I am also going to donate to their cause as well. Put pressure on the senators who could get it done and are dragging their feet!
 
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/3036677/
 
God Bless you Keith Olbermann.
 
 
https://npo.networkforgood.org/Donate/Donate.aspx?npoSubscriptionId=1000863&code=NAFC2009
 

Focus,

Its amazing how much we need our focus to keep our witts about us, in order to perform so many simple tasks, For example, today I was on the olyptical machine (sp?) and I was studying at the same time. I stumbled for a second but quickly regained my balance. Its amazing how much our ability to focus keeps us able to do certain things well and not falter.

Lately I have been struggling to maintain my focus. I cant seem to get a grip on my school work and the things I need to do. Maybe its my age.I am 25, and not 19. I can no longer stay up late cramming informaton into my probably shrinking brain, and I cant seem to ever catch up on my studies. I am always behind the game when I should be ahead. Granted I work 30 hours a week, and I take 4 classes. I have become a bit of a perfectionist, so I want to get A's constantly. But for some reason I cant seem to focus.

I took today off work to study. So far, I have reviewed one chapter for a test that isnt until Monday. I also managed to go to the gym and get a manicure. What is that about? I am avoiding...losing focus. I need to keep my brain ON. I need to stay focused. But I cant stop thinking about how much I just want to be a damn housewife. Why couldnt Phil just be wealthy? Im so lucky bc I have a great man who is flipping awesome. But I wish we were wealthy sometime, just to take the pressure off and I could go to school to do what I really want to do without financial worry.

Things could be worse. I think I have it really good...I am thankful. I just wish that I didnt always have to be so focused, It should be okay to BREATH AND RELAX sometimes.

i need yoga. and a chai tea latte.

NO I need to study,

sigh,

so sweet

I got home last night to a pretty fall type of flower bouquet on the dining room table.

I love my boyfriend...

Why didnt I take a picture???

<3

One of the most amazing songs ever, by one of the best bands ever

Sometime around midnight, ONE OF THEIR BEST SONGS!!!

....skip to about 2:30 if you want...it gets really really good from there...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTctlgFCtXE

I cant wait to see them live in October!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_peudMwg70

Dreams

Lately I have been having very wildly vivid and realistic dreams.

Last night, after good advice from a certain friend, I didnt think about how the dreams I have been having have actually been nightmares. Instead, I thought about how things are good, and that I am happy.

I drempt last night that I was in a white wedding gown. I was in a chapel type place and was set to be marrying my phil.

All of my friends and family members were there. My cousin and fiends were crying. I was even crying a little because I was happy.

My mom showed up late and was mean to phils mom, which as awkward. And Phil was 15 mintues late and I didnt even care. All I wanted was for him to show up, lol. I just wanted him to be there. I was mostly concerned about him not seeing me by accident before the wedding, and figuring the rest of the details out.

I only watched him walk in from the side entrance, in a black tuxedo looking handsome, and I couldnt seen much but his bald head and his two groomsmen behind him. It was enough to make me cry.

I woke up happier than I have ever been recently. It makes me teary eyed thinking about how happy I was to be marrying my sweetheart.

In the end things may not always be perfect with us, but he has my heart now, locked away inside his. No matter what I do that will never change.

Only time will tell where our lives will take us, where we will live, if we will have kids, and what will happen to our families as we get older. I do know that I love him though and I cant wait to start forever with him.

Life is....

Beautiful.
Disastrous.
Peaceful.
Interesting.
Short.
Intense.
Envious.
Delicious.
Bittersweet.
Tired.
Humble.
Lonesome.
Fiery.
Amazing.
Mysterious.
Transparent.
Fragile.
Love.

Whew

Boy has it been an exciting couple of weeks! School, visits with friend, people acting a bit kooky in the world, (i.e. Joe Wilson, Kanye, etc) and other crazy, bizarre things.

How about that healthcare reform? Dont even get me started.

With a boyfriend who could possibly get denied treatment for his back bc of a pre-existing conditions, this issue of healthcare is coming down on us like a giant money stealing hammer.

No I dont not support the Bauccus (sp?) bill, and I think Obama is living in a dreamworld if he thinks we can achieve the objectives he has "put out there".

but I dont want to waste all my bloggy time talking politics. I have been told that no one wants to hear it.

I swear though if I had money, I would become a politician. Everyone thinks I am a pretty loud/intense person anyways, why not use it to the advantage of the people? I would make a kick-ASS governer...

School has been pretty intense just far, and the semester just started two weeks to the date.

I already have a paper due Tuesday, and have NO idea how it will get done by then. Luckily I have already done a good leg of my research, and I have time at work to sit here and do things like blog, and homework. We are pretty dead this week, which I dont know is a good thing or a bad thing for me in the long run. Working part time hours with benefits=first to get cut when shit goes down the toilet....

Speaking of toilets, why do men NEVER clean toilets (or bathrooms) for that matter. I swear boyfriend man would be content to pee all over the room and not care. Its gross.

Its fall. Glorious fall. Pumpkins...and spiced drinks galore. I cant pick what to do first! Hayride??? Corn Maze??? You ever notice the irony in Corn Maze??? haha. And then there are haunted houses in October, and makeshift Oktoberfests around the state. So So SO exciting!

This weekend I am going to get my PASSPORT! Not like i have the money to GO anywhere, but I figure why not get it just in case right?! Phil is excited bc he has his. I cant wait to get out of this country one day. I think I belong elsewhere. Too bad you cant just move to anyther country and just start over. You need to have a work visa or something else in order to enter another country and stay there permanantly, which is kinda silly but I guess thats just how it works.

Imagine a society with no restrictions??? It would be the most beautifully chaotic thing ever!

Ok well I am pointlessly rambling.

Im going to go listen to the new Muse album because, well,  it is just amazing.