Focus,

Its amazing how much we need our focus to keep our witts about us, in order to perform so many simple tasks, For example, today I was on the olyptical machine (sp?) and I was studying at the same time. I stumbled for a second but quickly regained my balance. Its amazing how much our ability to focus keeps us able to do certain things well and not falter.

Lately I have been struggling to maintain my focus. I cant seem to get a grip on my school work and the things I need to do. Maybe its my age.I am 25, and not 19. I can no longer stay up late cramming informaton into my probably shrinking brain, and I cant seem to ever catch up on my studies. I am always behind the game when I should be ahead. Granted I work 30 hours a week, and I take 4 classes. I have become a bit of a perfectionist, so I want to get A's constantly. But for some reason I cant seem to focus.

I took today off work to study. So far, I have reviewed one chapter for a test that isnt until Monday. I also managed to go to the gym and get a manicure. What is that about? I am avoiding...losing focus. I need to keep my brain ON. I need to stay focused. But I cant stop thinking about how much I just want to be a damn housewife. Why couldnt Phil just be wealthy? Im so lucky bc I have a great man who is flipping awesome. But I wish we were wealthy sometime, just to take the pressure off and I could go to school to do what I really want to do without financial worry.

Things could be worse. I think I have it really good...I am thankful. I just wish that I didnt always have to be so focused, It should be okay to BREATH AND RELAX sometimes.

i need yoga. and a chai tea latte.

NO I need to study,

sigh,